Parents often talk about how they can’t remember what life was like before they have kids. They talk about having kids like they don’t know what they’d do without them.
When does that happen? When will I, as a parent, start to forget what life was like pre-Bean? When will I wonder what life would be like without him? Because right now, I am very much aware of what life would be like without him. I’m very aware of what life was like before him. I’m not saying it was better, but it was definitely different.
I can’t really compare the two lives, pre (pB), and Post-Bean (PB). pB, I could be as selfish as I wanted with my time, within reason, I did also have a wonderful wife to spend time with. pB, life was simple, uncomplicated. There wasn’t much to stress about. I had a great job, a great wife, we had recently moved halfway across the country, reduced our debtload in half and life was great.
PB, life is no longer simple and uncomplicated. I am now responsible for this helpless little being who has his own schedule. My life is no longer my own. I can no longer be selfish with my time, and things aren’t as simple as they used to be. But, there NOTHING, that rivals walking into his room after a nap and getting smiles. Or making faces at him and having him giggle and laugh. Nothing compares to the absolute joy I get each day knowing that I am a Dad. I am a dad to this super adorable little guy who makes every day better than the last.
My life pB and PB cannot be compared because they are not the same life. It would be like comparing apples and oranges. Both have their merits and drawbacks. I love my little dude more than life itself, but I still remember what life was like before him. I know what my life would be like right now if he hadn’t shown up 6 months ago. So yes, I’ve only been doing this 6 months, but I know parents with a baby similar in age and they talk like they don’t know life outside of parenting. So, when can I expect to forget life pB? I know somedays it would make life PB a whole lot easier. 🙂